dont let it.. drop

assalamualaikum.

hm. what now? let say anything around us would seems never been how we ever expected in positive ways. puzzled? hm. me too. or maybe we called it as problems of make things right.. yeah. that's it. well, i just want to share some of my problem of commitments here. and some time management we faced all the time.. i always try to make myself well-disciplined on my time.. some positive i get, but some negative i'd say will just come out of the gloom of some day..

sometimes i do like commitments around me. i can learn.. i can forced myself to do tremendous things and filled myself with wonders respectively.. but then i never make things right on time. time management? maybe... to0 much of unexpected things happened.. too much of thinking.. and maybe to0 much junks around me i should faced with no options for some moment.

Alhamdulillah. for now my biological cock constructed well.. just a lil bit of meal routine and hard work of workout to have myself stay healthy with mentally and physically fit for my daily life. i'm happy with that as well.

frankly, i would not blame my surprisingly sickness for some things i cant put my effort onto. i take those for my hidayah and strength for me to praised Allah for anything i faced today.. as human, i do forgot where i stand for some reason.. to be what we want is not easy as how it seems.. but its hard as how we had through.. somehow obstacles and problems are there with us to make it worth. right?

for commitment issues, in deals.. risk would me our first inner challenge, after our ability and survival. i do, stressed with my commitments. deals around me are so deep me down with hopes. i tried to make things on but somehow i do have weakness on my ability.. and my habits too. dear friend. please dont delayed your commitments. its like you fight for risk than to have least of spin-head twirl at the end. easy to say. everybody can do that! oh it is hard to control within than to control others~ please make myself as a robot (*hopeless)

with some thoughts and views within January and early February 2010.. i realized that i felt empty. i guess as if i'm an aquarium with goldfishes, its time for me to cleaned up my algae(s) and dirt, then filled myself with new filter and clean water for my goldfishes healthiness.. somehow it grows in me. 0.o (*methaphore huh) yeah..  

i must faced my fate for how i should.. to live for hope doesn't worth me. i want to grow old with honor.. i want to have a great whaler in which i can through the sea of tomorrow till my last ambitious. InsyaAllah!